Hard Week

This week has been a hard week it started with valentines day on Monday. This day was harder than I ever imagined. Neither Brian or I ever made a big deal out of valentines, but I was not prepared for how hard this day would be. DANGER..... I am so glad this day only comes once a year! I do have so say that my friends and family are what got me through it. I went to dinner with my family and Brian's family. To say the least, they made it very special. It was a day that I missed Brian more than you can imagine, but at the same time I felt so incredibly loved!

I had a couple of days to recover before today hit me. Today it has been two months since Brian went to be with Jesus! So bitter sweet..... I am so glad he is healed and living in paradise, but I miss him!! I just miss him.

It is crazy for me to think that two months feels like eternity to me, but to Brian it is nothing! Over the past few weeks I have been reading a lot about heaven. One of the things that has brought me the most peace is reading and learning more about God's perfect timing and the fact that there is NO time in heaven. The pain that I have from missing Brian is present because of time. It gives me such comfort knowing that Brian is not "waiting" on me to get there. I would never want him to feel the pain of being separated from me that I feel! Our life is just a vapor, and although it seems like it will be forever until I see that beautiful face again, I know that Brian is going to blink his eyes one day and I will be there with him! So as I am crying here on Earth I know Brian is helping prepare a place for me with a huge smile on his face knowing I will be there soon!

Thank you so much for your unending support and faithful prayers. This is the hardest thing I have ever been through but it helps so much knowing I am not alone.

Peace and love
Shea

Psalm 71:20-21
Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up. You will increase my honor and comfort me once again.


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